Monday, April 30, 2007

More *Stuff*!!

Well I've said it before, never set out to get political or say my piece (or is that peace) here ? :) See how very not with-it I am? BUT I'm gonna try cause this royally pisses me off.

Many of you know that due to my dd's spectrum disorder, we embarked on some serious diet changes about 18 months ago. Those diet changes werent done in a vacuum.. Much research - I mean hours and hours and hours of reading went into this decision. Because who wants to suddenly eliminate gluten and casein from their diet "just because"?

Along the way... down the many paths of research, I was startled and horrified by the things I found and learned. I'm still horrified.. Probably so much so I can hardly speak intelligently about it. I always wondered why folks hung out at places like "Whole Foods" .. in our County - it's almost this cult following (not really).. but a VERY popular hangout for both young and old alike. But when you have a child who is chemically sensitive and you learn that the water source can be contaminated..... the food can be contaminated if that food source was fed hormones and/or antibiotics and God knows what else....the soil can be contaminated.... the water used to irrigate the fields can be contaminated with so many different chemicals it will make your head spin... I could go on and on.... I wont. BUT it can scare you.. I think I used to bury my head in the ol' sand so to speak.

I've learned to take one day at a time and attempt to address one little thing at a time, as best as possible. BUT the stuff that's been happening with animal feed has raised every stinkin' hair on the back of my neck, back and you name it.. My blood feels like it's boiling. I mean at what point do we put our health ahead of profit? AND I'm not just talking about food we're feeding pets.... I'm talking about our kids and us! I'm about ready to become mom again to a baby - at a somewhat ripe age I'd prefer not to share :) That's "mature" by the way!... and I want to be around for a LONG while for my kids - they've already lost one mom... they dont need to lose another...

OK ... so much for not getting political or emotional.... I just think this whole Animal feed stuff has huge implications on everything for all of us and it truly pisses me off... and worries me....

And a little PS: you'll see that much of this is sent all over Asia... Korea is not known for being one of the more chemically *pure* places to grow up... It , like many places has it's fair share of pollution.. With over 11 million folks in one small place, pollution is nothing new to those living in Seoul and surrounding cities. Fish/Seafood is a large part of the diet and I wonder about heavy metals . We know that both our children are fairly toxic in several heavy metals (from various lab testing).. and now this.... I mean, it just goes on and on. I dont mean to be a complete bummer but until the average, everyday, NON-political... not well spoken person attempts to stumble thru a dialogue like this... well I dont think change will happen.....It takes all of us.. well-spoken or not... and we DO Need to change this.. for us... for our kids.. for our kids' kids and for our kids' grandparents! Please take a moment to think about this and/or some other issue that relates to our environment so that our kids have a safer place to live :)

Here's article:

Ariana Lindquist for The New York Times
Leftover scrap of melamine, which is used to create plastics and fertilizer, is often secretly mixed into animal feed.

Filler in animal feed is open secret in China

ZHANGQIU, China: As American food safety regulators head to China to investigate how a chemical made from coal found its way into pet food that killed dogs and cats in the United States, workers in this heavily polluted northern city openly admit that the substance is routinely added to animal feed as a fake protein.

For years, producers of animal feed all over China have secretly supplemented their feed with the substance, called melamine, a cheap additive that looks like protein in tests, even though it does not provide any nutritional benefits, according to melamine scrap traders and agricultural workers here.

"Many companies buy melamine scrap to make animal feed, such as fish feed," said Ji Denghui, general manager of the Fujian Sanming Dinghui Chemical Company, which sells melamine. "I don't know if there's a regulation on it. Probably not. No law or regulation says 'don't do it,' so everyone's doing it. The laws in China are like that, aren't they? If there's no accident, there won't be any regulation."

Melamine is at the center of a recall of 60 million packages of pet food, after the chemical was found in wheat gluten linked this month to the deaths of at least 16 pets in the United States.

No one knows exactly how melamine (which is not believed to be particularly toxic) became so fatal in pet food, but its presence in any form of American food is illegal.

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"They have fewer people inspecting product at the ports than ever before," says Caroline Smith DeWaal, the director of food safety for the Center for Science in the Public Interest in Washington. "Until China gets programs in place to verify the safety of their products, they need to be inspected by U.S. inspectors. This open-door policy on food ingredients is an open invitation for an attack on the food supply, either intentional or unintentional."

Now, with evidence mounting that the tainted wheat gluten came from China, American regulators have been granted permission to visit the region to conduct inspections of food treatment facilities.

The Food and Drug Administration has already banned imports of wheat gluten from China after it received more than 14,000 reports of pets believed to have been sickened by packaged food. And last week, the agency opened a criminal investigation in the case and searched the offices of at least one pet food supplier.

The Department of Agriculture has also stepped in. On Thursday, the agency ordered more than 6,000 hogs to be quarantined or slaughtered after some of the pet food ingredients laced with melamine were accidentally sent to hog farms in eight states, including California.

Scientists are now trying to determine whether melamine could be harmful to humans.

The pet food case is also putting China's agricultural exports under greater scrutiny because the country has had a terrible food safety record.

In recent years, for instance, China's food safety scandals have involved everything from fake baby milk formulas and soy sauce made from human hair to instances where cuttlefish were soaked in calligraphy ink to improve their color and eels were fed contraceptive pills to make them grow long and slim.

For its part, Chinese officials dispute any suggestion that melamine from the country could have killed pets. But regulators here on Friday banned the use of melamine in vegetable proteins made for export or for use in domestic food supplies.

Yet what is clear from visiting this region of northeast China is that for years melamine has been quietly mixed into Chinese animal feed and then sold to unsuspecting farmers as protein-rich pig, poultry and fish feed.

Many animal feed operators here advertise on the Internet, seeking to purchase melamine scrap. The Xuzhou Anying Biologic Technology Development Company, one of the companies that American regulators named as having shipped melamine-tainted wheat gluten to the United States, had posted such a notice on the Internet last March.

Here at the Shandong Mingshui Great Chemical Group factory, huge boiler vats are turning coal into melamine, which is then used to create plastics and fertilizer.

But the leftover melamine scrap, golf ball-size chunks of white rock, is sometimes being sold to local agricultural entrepreneurs, who say they mix a powdered form of the scrap into animal feed to deceive those who raise animals into thinking they are buying feed that is high in protein.

"It just saves money if you add melamine scrap," said the manager of an animal feed factory here.

(Page 2 of 2)Friday here in Zhangqiu, a fast-growing industrial city southeast of Beijing, two animal feed producers explained in great detail how they purchase low-grade wheat, corn, soybean or other proteins and then mix in small portions of nitrogen-rich melamine scrap, whose chemical properties help the feed register an inflated protein level.

Melamine is the new scam of choice, they say, because urea — another nitrogen-rich chemical — is illegal for use in pig and poultry feed and can be easily detected in China as well as in the United States.

"People use melamine scrap to boost nitrogen levels for the tests," said the manager of the animal feed factory. "If you add it in small quantities, it won't hurt the animals."

The manager, who works at a small animal feed operation here that consists of a handful of storage and mixing areas, said he has mixed melamine scrap into animal feed for years.

He said he was not currently using melamine. But he then pulled out a plastic bag containing what he said was melamine powder and said he could dye it any color to match the right feed stock.

He said that melamine used in pet food would probably not be harmful. "Pets are not like pigs or chickens," he said casually, explaining that they can afford to eat less protein. "They don't need to grow fast."

The resulting melamine-tainted feed would be weak in protein, he acknowledged, which means the feed is less nutritious.

But, by using the melamine additive, the feed seller makes a heftier profit because melamine scrap is much cheaper than soy, wheat or corn protein.

"It's true you can make a lot more profit by putting melamine in," said another animal feed seller here in Zhangqiu. "Melamine will cost you about $1.20 for each protein count per ton whereas real protein costs you about $6, so you can see the difference."

Feed producers who use melamine here say the tainted feed is often shipped to feed mills in the Yangtze River Delta, near Shanghai, or down to Guangdong Province, near Hong Kong. They also said they knew that some melamine-laced feed had been exported to other parts of Asia, including South Korea, North Korea, Indonesia and Thailand.

Evidence is mounting that Chinese protein exports have been tainted with melamine and that its use in agricultural regions like this one is widespread. But the government has issued no recall of any food or feed product here in China.

Indeed, few people outside the agriculture business know about the use of melamine scrap. The Chinese news media — which is strictly censored — has not reported much about the country's ties to the pet food recall in the United States. And few in agriculture here do not see any harm in using melamine in small doses; they simply see it as cheating a little on protein, not harming animals or pets.

As for the sale of melamine scrap, it is increasingly popular as a fake ingredient in feed, traders and workers here say.

At the Hebei Haixing Insect Net Factory in nearby Hebei Province, which makes animal feed, a manager named Guo Qingyin said: "In the past melamine scrap was free, but the price has been going up in the past few years. Consumption of melamine scrap is probably bigger than that of urea in the animal feed industry now."

And so melamine producers like the ones here in Zhangqiu are busy.

A man named Jing, who works in the sales department at the Shandong Mingshui Great Chemical Group factory here, said on Friday that prices have been rising, but he said that he had no idea how the company's melamine scrap is used.

"We have an auction for melamine scrap every three months," he said. "I haven't heard of it being added to animal feed. It's not for animal feed."

David Barboza reported from Zhangqiu and Alexei Barrionuevo reported from Chicago. Rujun Shen also contributed reporting from Zhangqiu.

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Baby James Quilt Info & Andrew Stuff as well!

Sorry for my lack of updates of late... bad blogger that I am!

Have worked on sorting thru /looking at all the incredible fabric folks have sent for Baby James' quilt - THANK YOU.. THANK you.. from the bottom of my heart! The squares and well-wishes are incredible.... filled with hope and love. I'm so pleased and feel so privileged to be able to do the quilt. BUT I'm also feeling a little intimidated which I rarely feel - you know my philosophy - things must be finished in a weekend :) LOL!! My "never feeling intimidated" is what allows me to get things done quickly but also makes some projects less than acceptable! I want to do a good job on this and am taking my time to think on it!

So, after much, much thought we've decided to have Andrew escorted to San Francisco Airport. It was SUCH a hard decision as with both Alex and Ellie we travelled. I love travelling as does George.... to see our children for the first time, to thank their foster moms and to be the last person they'll ever be turned over to. I dont want this to sound judgemental cause I know many families just can't travel for whatever reason. Being on the W. coast, certainly makes it easier for us. *If* the escort option ends up delaying our travel call and we learn of that, we'll travel.

Still holding out all hope that we'll get that new picture. Hopefully next week!

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Whoo HOO!! WBR on Andrew!

Sooo exciting. OK I know all of you adopting from Guatemala are wondering why this should be so dang great! Well, that's because, we were told not to expect anything. I mean NADA... nothing... 6 week report and pic and then you'll be lucky to recognize your baby when you meet him/her! So I'm thrilled. And he sounds like he's doing well - I mean as much as you can kind of get out of these reports.

He was just a tad over 4 lbs at birth and this report was done at 4 months and he's now well over 13 lbs. Sounds like he's developmentally on target or even ahead in some areas...... We also got the hospital DC summary and a CD/DVD of his last brain scan - yay!! Supposedely a new pic is on the way, but I've been told it may/may not actually come.. I sure hope so.. Can't wait to see!

Here is my summary of his report:
I was thrilled to get an update on Andrew in the mail. I wasnt really expecting
one, but the IA doc had requested some items and with those, we got a nice
little summary of him and a note that says a new pic will be sent with next
Children's Home DHL shipment .

The report (which was done when he was around 4 months... he was 5 months
yesterday) says he's taking 130cc of milk (formula) every 3 hours and tolerating well.
Wakes up once during the night for a bottle and then goes right back to sleep.
He babbles well and when he is communicated with (addressed) he sometimes
laughs. He follows objects with his eyes and looks toward sound. He likes to be
held by his foster mom and cries if others hold him.... If held, he puts weight
on his legs. Also says when on stomach, he lifts head well. Def seems like he's
meeting/maybe even exceeding milestones.

He's now 13.42 lbs and given he was just 4.4 at birth, think he's doing quite
well.

Ok that's it for now!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

This Family Sooooo Needs/Deserves a Break!

and yes I'm referring to Baby James :( Please continue to keep them in your thoughts and prayers. He's back in the hospital. Hard core chemo effects have set in :( !! Whatever it is you do.... pray, send positive vibes, do a dance, WHATEVER.... they need it. I can only begin to imagine what this family is going thru, esp James. I can only begin to imagine how exhausted they all are.... The constant worry, trips to the hospital, being away from your home, mom/dad being away from Mira, worrying about finances so you can continue to be there for your child. I'm very much attempting to make a vow.... that I will try not to bitch about the little things. That I will attempt to be grateful for each and every moment of everyday... that I will in fact enjoy the little things each and every day. I think James' spirit and this family's strength is amazing and an example to us all! As I re-read Jen's "about me" section I see she's now (I believe but not sure) edited the description and is describing his cancer as stage V (oh... major ugh).. I thought it was IV and hopefully maybe that's from awhile ago and they've downgraded his cancer. It's just sooooo time that James and his family catch a break.. Like they finally found the perfect combo of chemo and suddenly his cancer has completely halted.....that they're able to eradicate or remove whatever is in his liver....that he can retain his renal function....Oh, please keep them in your thoughts! I do so hope we can get this large project to them soon. In a small way, I can attempt to put myself in their shoes. And I do know that if it were me... I would find such HUGE comfort from the words I've already received (for them in the form of their cards)... The cards sent to me already (for their album.. and if you have no clue what I'm talking about, scroll down for info on the Good Wishes Quilt project underway for baby James) are not only incredible artistically BUT the sentiment - WELL it just doesnt get much better! You're all AWESOME. Thank you! I just know this will mean so much to them.. Tomorrow I've got to track down signatures for this silly appeal we're doing (for the gargantuan home down the road) and then hope to spend a good chunk of time chopping and cutting. I found it so therapeutic to take a rotary cutter to an (in need of) chenille spread as we went thru Ellie's diagnosis a few years back, and I so look forward to burning off a bit of steam tomorrow - just me... some fabric... and a sharp blade!! Do you hear that dear hubby and rain, rain, PLEASE go away!!??? Gotta get some coordination going with him and the weather person!! :) thanks everyone!!

Their blog if you'd like to read more:
http://jrjschrandt.blogspot.com/

Well wishes mean so much, so please stop by and lend them some support


Baby James and Big Sis Mira, cruising the Peds ward where he's been receiving treatment


Friday, April 20, 2007


WHAT a flippin' Week!!


It was just one of those weeks that seems to move way faster than I can even think of.....

* The V-Tech shootings are on all of our minds. There has been a lot of stuff in the adoption community for those of us with Korean born children in case they faced ignorant comments. It bothers me so much that this should even be necessary, but thats just how the world is, whether we like it or not.... I HATE that someone might judge my children based on their race and the fact that a mentally ill young man did a horrible thing. But unfortunately people generalize (NOT folks I want anything to do with)... It sucks, plain and simple. I hated that another parent I dont know and met recently at school one AM stared at Alex.. it dawned on me later he was wearing his hat backwards.. just like the Cho on the front page of the paper that day... Perhaps I was overly sensitive and I hope so. But then someone on one of my adoptive boards, posts that she's in the grocery store with her son and some idiot comes up to her and asks (WHY do people feel they are able to ask such personal Q's) : "do you know the background on your child? He might grow up like this! " and he proceeds to show her the front page of the paper...First how does this asshole NOT know that she doesnt have an Asian hubby at home, and second what business is it of his, and third.... all Asians are Koreans? Yes this child was.... but ..... well as you can tell.. this is why I avoid these posts.. NOT very eloquent... never will be.... My heart and my prayers go out to all the victims' friends and families... all those hurt in the V. Tech tragedy!

NEXT.. in this whacko week: WHAT THE HELL is going on with pet food? I was soooo ticked yesterday I think I could have spat nails! I'm reading the last of my email ready to close up for the night last night and get an alert that ... yep.... the company that I almost solely buy my cat food thru... has just learned that 20 or 30 cats are dead due to melamine. Oh joy! Yeah.. it's half way around the world in S. Africa, BUT you know what I'm not taking any chances. It didnt help that none of my calls were returned. This is royal Canin. So today I purchased much new food.. I'm dumping any food with any grain products for my cats...No more corn, wheat, soy, barley.... One food I'm still ok with is the Lick your Chops from Whole Foods with "rice protein" and they've sworn up and down that nothing has come from China (their rice)... UGH!! On a positive note, the kids are ever so happy that the cats too are now on a casein, gluten, corn and soy free diet - hooray!! So what do all the cat lovers out there who follow this blog feed their cats? I'll let you know how my radical pull of the only dry food I"ve ever used goes... I suspect to have some very interesting cat boxes to clean in the next many days (UGH)!!

Almost finally, you may remember my post long ago about fighting a 5K sq foot home down the road. Most homes on our road are pretty small. The largest is 1600 sq ft.. Well the final hearing was last week and DAMN... it was approved. I swear... I think money was sent under some proverbial table. How can they approve a home that will be smack dab in the middle of a line of homes 3,000 sq feet less? WELL you know what - HOPEFULLY they cant.. and they dont know who they're messing with.. our homes maybe tiny but they're ours.. we dont have money to burn like this yahoo.. but we'll pull this person thru ever last hearing we can in hopes of stopping this project. Have to say that on a positive note, it's gotten many of the neighbors who have (embarrassingly so) lived on this road for many years, together... and we're doing a damn good job fighting this thing. Appeal is due Monday. I'm not hearing that there are "red-legged frogs" in the area (it's true... along with a very renowned Monarch butterfly sanctuary..... OK all of you NOT from CA ... STOP laughing... we're using anything and everything to make this work and we're very proud of our butterflies :) ) and suspect this homeowner just doesnt know what's about to hit him :) hee, hee!!!!!

FINALLY - baby James update... the cards and material are flooding in... The cards are so incredible that I feel a huge weight is off my shoulders. It doesnt matter what the heck this quilt looks like.. it's all about you.. and your wishes for James... !! AND let me tell you... some are SOOO incredible... I mean INCREDIBLE wishes for him.

Have a great weekend everyone! Pics below of my kitties and let me tell you I will lose it completely and totally if the good food which we pay more for.. drive further for.. does ANYTHING to their flippin' renal function! As you all know I have a BIG mouth and can/will use it if necessary!! Our kitties.. all our animals are our family and it kills me that poison in their food... food we trust.. might harm them! OK done for now...


Max


Sam

Aggie - when she was much younger - she's got a whole LOT more hair now!!

Monday, April 16, 2007

What's For Dinner?

You know I have to apologize cause it doesnt seem to matter what "size" type I hit.. it all comes out big when I "publish"..


So given the extraordinarily depressing and heartbreaking events of the day nationwide....something on a much lighter note..

One of our fav... Korean dishes: Bulgogi.... So for those of you who have no clue, here it is..... even something at least one of my children can have (Ellie can have a tad but given her soy allergy -ONLY a tad.. but for the most part, much of Korean cooking is free of gluten and casein - yay!!)

Bulgogi:


1.5 lbs boneless rib steak, cut into very thin slices , 5 " long and about 2" wide
4 tsp sugar
1/4 cut soy sauce
3 garlic cloves
3 scallions, cut into 1" pieces
1/4 tsp pepper
1 tsp Korean sesame oil

Can marinate overnight, but min of 1 hour.

serve with white sticky rice and an assortment of side dishes... we sometimes roll up in a big leaf of butter lettuce with rice/bulgogi mixture....

YUMMY!!


Sunday, April 15, 2007

Here it is!!

Mira's Quilt... Many things I like and dislike about what I did.. I love that it' s for her and why I perhaps feel I need to scrutinize more.. be more perfectionistic!! It was the first time I've used meander quilting which is a larger version of stippling! AND sooo happy I tried it cause I think it helped hide a few flaws in my piecing - LOL!! But then I got to the border and major UGH!! NOW I know why I like to cut corners and use the backing material for the border.. all in all tho, I still have a few things to do to finish off but hope Mira will like. Everything Jen has said (if my interpretation was correct...) is that she's a pretty girly -girl! Is that correct for those of you who know her?

And I'd just like to add one little thing altho suspect most of you know this.. but as someone who has a child with special needs (obviously very different than what Jen/family is dealing with)... but some similarities.. pls. if you send something to James, pls try to send something to Mira. I can only begin to imagine how tough it is on someone Mira's age, to go thru all she is, watching her (very new) brother suffer and struggle as he is. Please keep them all in your thoughts and prayers (know you are already!)







Saturday, April 14, 2007

Mira's Quilt almost done - yay!!

I'll post tomorrow. I've been using a kit and not real happy with many pieces of it, so have had to substitute....Ultimately tho, think it will be cute.. Watch for the finished product tomorrow PM!! :)


Thursday, April 12, 2007

Instructions For Anyone wanting to Participate in the Baby James Quilt Project:

Sooo glad many of you can participate. If you wouldnt mind, I'd like to ask you each to shoot off an email to me... you can just put baby james quilt in subject line and I'll know you want to participate. I will repeat these instructions in the group email I send out that will include my address . Mostly I want to keep folks info in one place, and attempt to begin thinking of design options based on how many people are participating. It'll be easier this way for me I think vs. having to check my private mail on various boards.

So my email is: Bodegalee@comcast.net

FABRIC: This is what I'll need. A 6"x6" approx (bigger is ok too, but not too much bigger) piece of 100% cotton fabric/woven (preferably NOT knit/t-shirt material as it's too stretchy) and/or flannel fabric. You can choose something that you like... that he would find fun (i.e. Blues clues... I think I've got a stash of Blues clues around I may throw in); and or it could be a piece of fabric that has some meaning to it that you'd like to pass onto him. Something from say a quilt or old blanket - something perhaps that's been falling apart but you cant bear to part with it due to sentimental value (you could cut a few squares and then do this type of thing for yourself)... It could be a piece of material from clothing. ANYTHING you like..... *if* you wanted you could embroider something on it, or do something else creative, BUT remember this will need to be something that can be washed easily, so anything done needs to be fairly bullet proof.... Mostly it's about the sentiment.... that each piece of fabric represents a family - their hope/wishes for James. Here are two websites if you want to see more:

http://members.cox.net/~joannanorman/quilt/photos.html
http://www.originalquilts.com/100_good_wishes_quilts.htm

In the second website you can see how they made a somewhat matching album covers for the little album that accompanies the quilt - I'll see if I cant get that done too.

CARD
: For the card - I'm thinking the best way to do the card would be a single sheet of cardstock or whatever you want, but preferably something that wouldnt need to be opened (that way once in album, all can be seen without taking it out of protective sleeve)... on the card, write your wish for James, who it's from and where you're from (if you feel comfortable, ie. the such and such family, from whatever city, State) and either attach a photo of the fabric you've included or attach a small sample of it.. I'm thinking the cards should be preferably no larger than say: 5x7 or so....7" being the width. This should be easy for all you digi scrappin' moms out there Smile

Thanks so much.. hopefully this isnt too confusing!

Wednesday, April 11, 2007


Thoughts for the Day.... Some fun, and Some NOT so fun......


1. My first thought is that I love having my kids home for Spring Break and I'm really looking forward to homeschooling next Fall. I know this isnt for everyone and NEVER thought it would be something I'd consider - we have some great schools around us. But the reality is that I miss my children when they're gone and we have a great time when they're home (NO, we're not the Cleavers and yes... there are days that arent so great)... but life just seems to slow down a little....memories of their babyhood during weeks like this. I love it!

2. I have rediscovered my crock pot - which I generally pull out during the colder months vs. now.. BUT in Sept we replaced some appliances and purchased a duel fuel stove.... AND yep.. since Sept I've been without burners cause the propane company I've been working with can't make up their mind on where to put our tank .. and frankly it just wasnt the highest priority esp after we learned of Soo Hee's passing in Oct.. but between microwaving and the burner on the BBQ, we've been ok. Anyway, Alex loves to help in the kitchen AND he's really good at it.. Today, some pics of him helping to put together a chicken dish that I havent tried before. I suspect (while it smells delicious) it may end up in the garbage. Should have followed my instinct and NOT added the pasta initially as the directions indicated (perhaps rice pasta melts faster than wheat cooks - hmmmm!!), as it's already pretty much mush! Oh well.. for chiles and soups, cant beat a slow cooker.... never have been all that successful with Chicken! But here are some fun pics!










After cooking, we took the dog for a walk and then played out front for awhile, in spite of our monsoon Spring Winds (it's beautiful if you can somehow block yourself from the wind!)... The kids did rock angels in the driveway!



I think I mentioned - and NOT sure if this is just my "all boy" boy... but ALL his jeans have holes in the knees.. Some places you pay more for this cool look... I just keep telling myself that!! :)


AND finally, on a sad note.... Baby James started heavy duty chemo today. The liver biopsy indicated that the tumor was Wilms which means the chemo he had been getting was doing NOT much of anything if another tumor was able to grow that big during treatment. He's going to be on 3 HARD-core chemo drugs and hospitalized while getting them for 5 days at a time. Then home for approx 2 weeks and then back again to repeat. Radiation will follow, which runs the risk of damaging the remaining small portion of the kidney left. It is going to be a LONG, hard battle to beat this thing. Sooo please, keep this little one and his family in your prayers, thoughts - whatever it is you do to send good vibes to someone. Here's a link to light a candle in his honor.... to lift him up... to give him strength - again whatever it is you believe in.....

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=James

Folks did this for us when Soo Hee passed away and I can't tell you how much it meant.. NOT to in anyway make that comparison with James.... Its just right now he's got the fight of a lifetime in front of him and needs all the support he can get.

I'm thinking of doing a quilt. Once I commit I'll HAVE to finish it.. because I'm thinking of doing a "good wishes quilt"... a take-off from the 100 good wishes quilt theme. The idea is a Chinese tradition for birth, in that each of the pieces of cloth are infused with the blessings of each of the people who donated it. I wouldnt necessarily do a "100" good wishes simply cause I'd like to get it to the family sooner than later..... unless of course I immediately got 100 pieces of fabric. I'd request from the many groups I'm on that anyone who would like, can donate a piece of cotton fabric of a certain size, along with a card and a well-wish for James that I'd put into an album for them. What do you all think? The quilt would be fairly basic. Even if I were a much better quilter than I am, I just wouldnt have the time to do anything super intricate and get it to them in a timely fashion (this from a 'wanna-be' quilter who likes to finish in a weekend)... In other words, it would probably be all the blocks of fabric pieced together in a hopefully eye-catching manner (pics below). I just dont want anyone who sends fabric to think that I 'm going to put -together this huge masterpiece show-stopper cause that's just not me... BUT I suspect/hope the majority of folks would just feel good that their "square" and card are represented....

We lost a child - our Sweet Soo Hee.... and I can't imagine greater pain..... until I've read some of this Mom's posts..... to watch your child struggle..... in pain and knowing you can't do anything to be there... to take it away...I just can't even begin to imagine what they're going thru..... AND I so want to do this.. but it would have to be something I could get done fairly quickly.... I'd love any feedback if you've gotten this far in this long post (thank you!) :)





Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Busy, Busy, Busy!!!!

I apologize as I've been a very poor blogger of late! You probably recall reading my long list of "to do's " awhile back and I'm now kind of knee-deep into many of them. Ironically enough, I find this helps me with the wait AND we accomplish a lot. Unfortunately, doesnt leave a lot of time for blogging. No news on the adoption front and as everyone keeps saying "no news is good news!" So I'm enjoying this time (altho I'd certainly LOVE an update on our little pumpkin). On the home front.... what arent we doing is the Q? It's gonna be crazed I suspect til Andrew comes home. AND this isnt because of him! Even before learning of Soo Hee we knew that we needed to do all this home maintenance this Spring. When you live in a high humidity climate.... one where the summers can be foggier than the ickiest of winter days... well, you've got to strategize your gameplan. Things like new floors (wood), roof, paint...should be done during the somewhat dry(er) months. Soooo that's the push here... would have been now regardless - sure, expecting a little one in about 11 weeks is certainly motivation as I want everything as completely and totally calm after he arrives, as possible. On the bright side, finally met with a wonderful contractor today and REALLY like him! I suspect we'll be able to work with him thru many of our projects including our garage conversion. Oh, how I'm looking forward to that space but unfortunately I also suspect that project will be on the back burner for many more months (as permitting could take awhile).

So here's a sample of the final runner-ups for the floor choices - FINALLY ditching the last of our carpet - HALLELUJAH!! I will never, EVER have carpeting again!!! :) and will be doing the biggest happy dance when it's yanked out! For us, for where we live, our lifestyle - animals, kids.. carpets just not a good choice. It's Brazillian Cherry and the first two pics are what I'm leaning toward. It's a tad darker overall than I ever thought I'd gravitate toward, but it's a 5" plank and is just sooo pretty. The other is also Brazillian Cherry and a 4" plank with a lighter hue to it. I have just requested a sample of that. These are from Lumber Liquidators - has anyone ever worked with them? I'd love to hear - good, bad, evil stories??? Thusfar the CS has been great.

Living at the Beach is awesome, BUT the wear and tear to your home is incredible! I'm sooo praying all these improvements will last awhile and we can get the garage conversion done soon, giving us 2 more bedrooms (just trying to time it right as I want Andrew to have many peaceful months of settling in before we even think of any chaos around here). Will promise to take before pics but BELIEVE Me the carpets are awful! Ellie is chemically sensitive and we were cleaning them sooo much (granted they are/were a nice shade of cream!!) sooo when I knew we'd be replacing I stopped getting them cleaned and wow.... disgusting spots in no time flat! In other words, I'll share some carefully edited "before " pics otherwise you'll all think we're the biggest slobs in the world!! :) Hope you all had a Fantastic Easter! Take care!!








Thursday, April 05, 2007


ANOTHER PRAYER REQUEST!


Sorry folks, but this is sooooo important.. I dont think many folks read this blog, but if you do, please, please say a prayer, send good vibes, do a dance.. whatever you do in an attempt to help a situation!! I've posted about this sweet baby before - his name is Baby James and he has Wilms tumor. Well his Wilms doesnt know it's Wilms as it isnt acting as such - defying all the rules. This little sweetie just turned one year and he's got mets to the liver. I'm literally sick for he and his family. Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers!! Here was a post I did on another board:

Oh, I'm just soooo saddened and literally sick over what I've just read. I've posted sporadic updates about the sweet baby named James who came home to his family about 8 months ago (i've lost track so this maybe off). He was diagnosed with Wilms tumor shortly after homecoming and started an intense regimen of chemo and had one kidney removed. Usually Wilms is very contained but this little guy's cancer has broken all the rules. AND unfortunately today's news, indicates that the rules have been broken further. His cancer has metastasized to his liver. This is very BAD news.. I mean really bad news. I believe they're going to check to see if his lungs are affected, and he may have a portion of his liver removed as well. He turned one on March 10, 2007....You guys, Baby James needs a HUGE miracle.. I'm not trying to be a downer, but this doesnt look good.. Please, please say some major prayers for him! He's been thru so much in his short life as has his family... but we've seen what prayers can do.. With baby Alex's comeback (and he seems to be doing great - what a HUGE inspiration!).. thx everyone!!

Leigh
Here's the blog: http://jrjschrandt.blogspot.com/



Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Prayer Request for a Friend.....

This is for a cyber-friend named Patti. She's got a beautiful bio-dd, a wonderful son who was born in Korea, and a little sweetie (baby girl) who recently came home from Guatemala. I believe she's around 18 months give/take. She and her dh also have a baby boy on the way from Guatemala - in PGN now. They recently returned from a visit trip.

Her dh was recently dx'd with renal cancer. The crowning blow is that his brother has it as well and it looks like it's a rare genetic kind of a thing which may ultimately also effect their dd.

He's having surgery Fri to have the kidney removed..

If you could PLEASE say a prayer that:

1. there's no evidence of metastasis of the cancer (spreading)
2. that if it's confirmed both men have this rare genetic disease, that Patti's dd does NOT have the gene
3. that both brothers (incl my friends' dh) can heal and get back to their lives as they've known (unfortunately if the genetic disorder is confirmed the prospect of a long and healthy life is not very positive).

Im just soooo sick over reading this. An incredible family... VERY young man for this to be happening to.. Please, if you wouldnt mind.. say a prayer.. I thnk we've all seen what the power of prayer can do for someone! And Patti if you read this, I hope you dont mind my posting cause I'm just soooo wanting all to work out and know how folks' prayers in our hours of need certainly helped. You take care!





Tuesday, April 03, 2007

I've been Having Fleeting Thoughts of late about.....

Having Andrew escorted....This is something I personally NEVER thought we'd consider, but now feel like I'm seeing why many folks choose this option. I really love the idea of ALL of us meeting him for the first time, together! And when you have little ones at home (without folks close by who can care for them), having both dh and I leave for 6 days is just not possible. And taking both children would not be the best solution either (esp with their allergies and not being able to read Hangul!)

I've been recalling how it went when I left Alex and dh home to get Ellie with a friend. And while dh never complained, it was obvious that his connection to Ellie took longer, which makes sense.. but more importantly I think he felt left out. This weekend as we did more to prepare for Andrew's arrival, I'm sensing that my easy going little girl, isnt all that thrilled about the prospect of mom's preoccupation with a baby! AND I think the transition is prob gonna be a bit rougher than I'm anticipating (for her). Believe me, hope I'm wrong. And leaving dad home to administer all their supplements also has me a bit nervous... It's not that he can't do it, but that I just always do it......I know much of this is just "jitters"... I often feel over-protective, esp of Ellie, with her special needs.

But the reality is that in talking to Jill at the agency today, Eastern continues to quote that travel (or the "call") maybe as much as a month delayed for those who choose the escort option, which then, for us, is NO longer an option. I guess I just wish Eastern didnt have the 3 business day rule (being there for the full 3 business days, not arriving/departing those days). So essentially with the lost day in travel over, I'd be gone 6 days (well arrival at home on the 6th day is very early AM so that's nice). Don't get me wrong, I LOVE, LOVE Korea!! And had so much fun shopping to our heart's content last trip with a friend. We saw so much. But this trip I'd hoped to do a pretty quick turn-around. I realize Eastern is a big agency and they've got lots to coordinate AND they do some really incredible things for the parents, like meeting Dr. Kim Sr. and Jr, lunch the Blessing Celebration, etc. The agency experience thru Eastern sounds incredible - they really take good care of you while there (and I'd def. have not a worry in the world travelling alone). But as you can see by my ad nauseum writing, still having conflicted feelings. BUT, bottom line if travel is to be that delayed, either dh or I are going to get our baby boy. I had a wonderful fellow BB gal offer to go with. What a sweetie to offer!! It does appear that we'll probably travel (if the 12 week timeframe continues like it has) the first week of the summer semester, so my college prof friend would def NOT be able to go (the intial plan.. she knows Ellie soooo well, and the thinking was that we'd take her).....

Long ago, I had visions of Ellie going so that we could hopefully make the trip over to SWS and see Soo Hee's foster mom. But given that we still have NO word as to whether they've even given her all the stuff I sent, I doubt very much they'd set up the meeting. And the reality is that even in a longer trip, I dont know if I feel up to "going there" (the visit) now. I do hope that possibly I can find the cremation grounds and visit where Soo Hee's ashes were spread.... we'll see. I want this to be a happy trip and I know it's going to be! AND if in the end we can (and choose ) to have him escorted I think that will be incredible too. I'm such a stubborn, convicted person sometimes, but I find as I get older I'm seeing the "other side" more and more, and NOT too proud to say it...
Legals are Here - Whoo Hoo!!

which means, one LESS thing to worry about - yay!! Legals for those of you not familiar with the process are what's needed to file the I600 with our CIS. Given that we dont even have our I171H yet, there's not a huge rush even tho they should be able to run concurrently. I think our CIS is still trying to figure out what we're doing, going from one Homestudy indicating the adoption of a baby girl from Korea, to a boy or girl from Guatemala, and now back to Korea again. In other words, I think I'm gonna suggest to our agency that they wait a bit before sending in the I600. Our CIS is supposedely moving quickly which is MUCH different than our previous adoptions. So hopefully we'll have our I171H approval soon :)

Sunday, April 01, 2007

NOW I've SEEN Everything :)!!!!


I've been looking for various solutions to our sleep situation once Andrew gets home, and was sharing with several these past few days that I'm frustrated someone hasnt come up with a better sidecar/co-sleeper.. one that doesnt have a low wt limit and yet is also deep enough to be safe beyond 6/9 months. Thus my post about futons the other day. Soooo I've also been looking into trundle type beds, as once we do our addition we were planning on getting one for the future office space. AND low and behold I came upon this ( I preface this with I'm a HUGE animal lover - we have MANY!!... and I"m sure this may be perfect for someone, but just got a kick out of it!!):

http://www.orvis.com/store/product_choice.asp?pf_id=42P6&dir_id=1034&group_id=11997&cat_id=11998&subcat_id=11999

I hope no animal lovers are offended... I do actually know many who have several dogs on their bed (i've got several cats who often enjoy attacking our toes!!) so this maybe a great solution for some!! Smile NOW if someone could just make a better co-sleeper for baby!! Maybe I should email Orvis!!



Laughing _________________
Dairy Free Ice Cream Anyone?

Alex loves to cook, so being on this specialized gf/cf diet is a major pain at times. We've had great success, truly... finding substitutes for most everything EXCEPT ice cream (well that and a good grilled cheese! Soy cheese just doesnt cut it!).... So the past few days, Alex and I were perusing Vice Cream and our favorite dairy free cookbook and decided to combine two different recipes and see what happened. It worked!! AND the kids loved it.... AND it tasted great..... So for any dairy free folks out there, here it is:

2 14 oz cans coconut milk (unsweetened)
2 ripe bananas
1 tsp (or to taste) vanilla
Sugar to taste

pour into ice cream maker, let spin for about 45 min or til texture desired (we got this to a soft-serve consistency, dished some out then put it in the freezer.)

I figure next time we can add pineapple or pineapple juice and a bit of rum extract and make a Pina Colada concoction! I was just so thrilled with the texture - it's much more creamy than some of the other things we've tried (one made from a powder mixture and carbonated water - as you can imagine - NOT very creamy!)... Hopefully it'll taste as good today as it did yesterday!




The color was somewhere in the middle of these two pics.. Kind of looked like french vanilla

Pls excuse Alex's holey jeans!! I dont know what it is - age or what... all his jeans have holes in the knees these days!!